faith

she lost her faith

in me, at some point

I'm sure I pushed it to one side

or, being less

severe

Maybe, she thought I was

other than I am

Meant for something more

more than what

is both transparent and opaque

more than trying to live honestly

and openly

and unreservedly embracing the

next morning seeing

But, too, playing a role to support as

thinking was required

other times, failing to see and

it's just the imperfection

of living

I stand, honestly

and unashamed of my trying

it was without reservation

without looking over the present

the person in my presence

I was not, am not

looking for better options

Were the expectations too high

did I, would i

have been better off

no

I have tried, have not always

succeeded

success when it matter most

is hardest

I ache, thinking too much about

what we're losing

for no reason

There's time and space to grow

and not throw away the

side by side, facing the world

knowing the heart beating next

will always be there