3.24.2022

10.17.2021 #4

I don't know what I believe anymore
    an empty vessel drifting 
unmoored from the earth that
            restrained by reassured
nothing more than a disoriented mass
    of synaptic maybes and
the constant pit in my stomach
    the heaviness of chest holding
    back a beating heart
    running, racing from fear
from the fear of knowing 
that there are only so many
    more of these beats to give

Take me as I take you
            give unto the other with
            complete trust nothing more
        than the self imposed maybes you
            can't ever fucking square.

We're all just so many hoping
        creating knowing that we
            don't, won't, can't
bear to face each other in the 
            clarity of that light allowing
        forcing a choice to move one
            way and not the other 
                seconds to waste belong
            to a past where this
                kind of shit was novel.


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