3.10.2022

ghost ship (10.16.2021)

 And which port does it
    find a bottomless harbor
within which floating
    field in place as if
        tethered.

    But the anchor has
                            not dropped
It remains clutched tight
                            against this chest
unwilling to the vulnerability
        of stasis
            of connection
                to earth
of the denial of
    the waterborne truth
    that as tide and wind
        so to, I.

In this unnatural harbor
    the tide neither coming in
        nor going out
    the sails fall limp
        spun and knotted around
    my masts
                    unable to
outrun this ghost ship 
    of memory
        of longing
    of confused and contradicted
motivating choices
that must be made
                    must finally
drop anchor
                    or
set sail.

I need both.
    want neither.

Am hounded by those 
    black sails
on the further horizon

Impossible to outrun
    given infinite
        wind &
            time

It never relents
            It never tires
It will never fade into
    the unknown grey
            mist of lost
                memories

It is a truth from which
    I will never
        escape.

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